Harsh Reality

It's so easy to get caught up in the daily routine of class and homework and employment responsibilites. When involved in any one task it isn't hard for me to remain focused. But all this extra focusing has cost a lot more than I thought it would. Time is my enemy because there never seems to be enough of it. I'm constantly racing and planning and scheduling in the hopes that there won't be a fraction of a second wasted to any unnecessary task and yet, I'm still struggling to keep afloat. How do I manage? How to I plan? I haven't a clue.

A phrase I hear most often, "I don't know how you do it!"

Well, I don't know how I do it either. In fact, I try not to think too hard about how it is I actually accomplish the things I need to do. If I thought about it too much, I might have a nervous breakdown.

Not to mention

*my power has been turned off

*my internet is off

*my phone is turned off

*my gas is turned off

*my tuition is over due

*lost the insurance on my car due to non-payment

*my car is running on fumes because I don't have any money to put gas in the tank

I'm drowning. How can I concentrate on reading ECGs and central line dressing changes and 12 hour work shifts on top of 12 hour clinical rotations when I can't turn on my lights or cook dinner on my stove?

This sucks. Big time.